a dead mermaid, perhaps.

have you ever been caught
into the most vicious circle
of boredom, sadness and procrastination?
have you ever felt
your heartbeat stop
for no particular reason?
did you ever go to the beach
and lied down there
over the seashore
picked up shells
and wished your face
was like a silent pearl
sleeping forever in its own cage?

mother of horror, mistress of darkness
release me from all your sorrows
slice me with the sharpest knife you find
because i have, yes i have
(all the experiences of self-destruction
even the ones in my imagination)
i have lived and died alone.